good morning every body

yesterday they found the husband of my cousin under the rubble of loran building in the fourth day of fallin down the building, my cousin 57 years and her daughter 25 years didnt appear yet, this morning i woke up asking a logic question :who caused the building fall down ?god or corruption?
where is god? and why did he allow that poeple die in this terrible manner?
why god orders muslims and other believers to be human and king and he himself is not kind nor human?
life is very unlogic and non sense .every thing ends in a second without a logic cause
my cousin didnt diserve this cruel manner of death , she was very kind, decent , and good.
when i ask why god wants disaster for poeple ?fundametals dont know what to answer exept a repeated nonsense word :it is the wisdom of god and we have not to ask why?or another nonsense answer :it is an examination from god to see if u are patient or not?
god knows if i am patient or not and he dosent need to put me in a cruel exam to know and i dont need to know my self either
"ebtelaa"is the only interpretetion of disasters
the other answer will be denying of god

the building in loran fell down

in loran alexandria egypt , last monday , i building fell down , while the resident s were still asleep in their homes, i had five relatives in this building, my aunt and cousin died and they were burried on tuesday , my other cousin ,her husband and daughter are still under the fallen building
our country is the only country in the world where the building fall down whil people are still inside
why did god wanted this?
why god cerated them and after that he killed them in this cruel manner?
is god really exists?
i dont know
i am really agnostic

merry chrismas and happy adha feast and happy new year

hi every body
i hope i live till i see all people celebrate their feasts together regardless their religion
yesterday i attended chrismas celebration and i song chrismas songs with christians inspite i am moslem
i enjoyed very much singing and i was very joyful and cheerful, i joined happy people so i was olso happy
religion in the main cause of hate and wars all over the world
let religion gather us and dont make it a cause of struggle and war

hi every body happy feast

today is the fourth day of the big feast, my ex-husband is in pilgrim with his third wife, i enjoy my time very much, i walk on the beach at 8 oclock every day, i visit my relatives and i eat fatta, i am on dite so i cant eat much fatta, i am very happy as i got rid of my veil, but every one aroud me critisizes me , they are all sad and angry with me as i challenged god s order and i took off my veil, the are sad and astonished that i live happy inspite i disobey god.
i still wear my veil in front of my sons, when there are foreign men , i dont want to hurt their feeling, i really suffer when i cause them pain.
i suffer from the islamic veil when i was wearing it and even after i took it off.
thanks for the sheik who made me kol3, i am free i am happy with my freedom , i still live in my house , in my bedroom, and among my sons, i dont need any thing else exept a husband agrees with my ideas, good morning and happy day